meet the love of my life: Julian Sincere Louangrath

Born: Thursday November 10th @ 6:14am. 6 lbs 8 oz, 18 inches long. 8 days before my real due date, a day before my scheduled induction.

He looks like ME. haha. He has my lips and phat cheeks. and he also sleeps with his mouth open..like yours truly. Being a mom is amazing. I love him soo much. All he really does is poop. eat and sleep. i can't wait til he can open his eyes for long periods of time. He's so precious :)

The rest is my labor story. MEN ARE SO LUCKY!

Right after I wrote my last xanga entry, literally like 5 minutes later my water broke (11:15ish). I was sitting down and I felt a big POP and water coming out, I'm thinking my stupid butt peed on myself, but I also had a feeling my water broke. So, I went to the bathroom and "peed" - I guess. I came back in my room to change my panties and sat back down, and it kept rushing out! I'm telling you, it was like a water hose. I stood up and got my floor all wet and yelled at Sam to get up. He looked at me and said, "Huh?" lol. So I had to just throw my stuff in a bag since I didn't pack yet and gather up all the baby's things. We went to go pick up my cousin to go to the hospital with us. I wasn't really in a rush, I wasn't having contractions yet. I realized we 4got the camera at home, so I made Sam go back home to get it. lol. We reached the hospital around 12:00am and get checked in. The whole ride there and during the check-in, water was still coming out. At 12:45 the nurse checked my cervix and I was 3 cms dialated and completely thinned out.

Around 1:30ish she gave me pitocin (however you spell it) to make my contractions closer and stronger since my water broke already. I was chillen through my contractions for a good 2-3 hours maybe. They were uncomfortable, but not bad. My sister was surprised bcuz my contractions were coming real close and going up to the 150s and I wasn't in pain. She kept asking the nurse if the baby was coming soon since my contractions were like that, and the nurse said, "I doubt that" so I'm thinking, oh great, I have alot more time.sighs. Then all of a sudden, they started hurting like crazyyyyy. The contractions would only be in the 60s and I would be in pain. i was breathing through them like a champ though. haha. She checked me again at 4:15 and told me I was 5 cms. I'm thinking, holy shit, it took me forever to get to 5 and my contractions are hurting. This labor will take FOREVER! She asked if I wanted any pain relievers and I said no. The idea of getting an epidural and being numb waist down completely freaks me out. I was trying to see how far I can go without it. She had me switch positions bcuz I was having back labor, so I was on my bed on all fours rocking back and fourth. Didn't help with SQUAT! I took Nubaine thru my IV and that ain't help with anything either. It just made me feel drunk, but I felt EVERYTHING. I was crying like a little beeyotch. no lie haha. And I was being mean to everyone.

The nurse asked if I was feeling any pressure and I said no. She asked to check me and I figured why? I'm not at 10 cms yet, I have a long way to go. I really didn't want to be touched at the time. But she checked me anyways and she goes, "wait, you're completely gone. You're ready to push!" This was a little before 6:00am. An hour and a half after she told me I was only at 5. The doctor wasn't even ready yet. She told me to push whenever I felt like it, but I felt like I didn't have the strength so I would just breath thru my contractions. lol. When I pushed I felt like I was bout to push out my insides. boyyyy, pushing ain't no joke. My sister, cousin and Sam was telling me that they can see his head coming out and he has alot of hair. I'm like, WHO CARES, GET HIM OUT! The doctor came in at the nick of time, told me to push 3 more times and out came his head. The worst part is when he told me to hold it and not push anymore so that he can get his head out. It burns like a bitch. Then the last big push for the grand finale, and popped out Julian! I was relieved, yet out of it cuz it hurt so bad. Everyone was crying and I was bawling like a little baby. The doctor asked if it was tears of joy or pain, and I said, BOTH! I cried partly bcuz he told me I was getting 9 stitches also. :( All i really remember saying while pushing is: MY BUTT HURTS! puhahahaha.

Never again.